Okay

If you can't stand watching your reflection staring back at you in the mirror, it is okay to turn off all the lights

If you feel like no one could understands what you are going through in your life, it is okay to cry it all out

If you feel like you just can't handle this pain you are feeling anymore, it is okay to rock yourself to sleep

If you have this feeling as if you're going to lose at this battle you are currently fighting, it is okay to have some scars that showed your battle wounds

And if you feel like you can't do this alone, it is okay to ask someone for help

It is okay not to be okay

- Nadine (11/07/2014)

Untitled

If somebody you're close to loves some kind of band more than anything in the world
Take a look around them and at all of the mess they are in
Because maybe, just maybe it's more than just a love for a band
More than what it seems to you
Maybe it's more than just singing a song or learning the guitar riffs of it on YouTube
And the never-gonna-happen dreams
Maybe the band has saved them
By that means, be there for them when nobody else does
Lightened their darkest of days
Maybe the band enlightens them from their depressed life
Maybe the band is all that's there
When they feel they wants it to end
And maybe that's why they love the band
Adore the band
Even more than their friends

- Nadine (09/07/2014)

Thieves

Their horid masters will not see the excuses of failure, slowness. Or see themselves be cheated. Ill health can go unnoticed and neglected, for some. For those who has proven that they are useful, awards are awaiting and health and wounds can be healed. Their prey; either careless, weak or frail. But, wealthy or reasonably so. However, in times of uncertainty and upheaval due to war, this act of pick-pockets is tremendously unsavoury and beyond unlawful... Save their souls, before it is too late.

#prayforgaza

- Nadine (09/07/2014)

Emptiness

When will they finally realize?
That she has never been actually happy
The walls that she built around her, notice that?
She built it so no one could come in
Nor break her already broken heart
Nobody really understand what she felt
They said they do, but it is just because they are done listening to her

When will they stop and observe?
About the sadness she felt 24/7
About all the tiredness of having to go through this on her own
About the depression that she drag every step of her way
And about all the stuffs she kept deep deep inside her

Little did they know
She cried herself to sleep every night
She got lost in music because she believes that only music that could cure her
She harmed herself because it makes her calm
She shut the world out because she is too tired of all these
She tried to end her life because she feels rejected by the ones closest to her

For her the world is such a cruel place

If only someone could be her pick-me-up
Be there for her any time at any cost
The one that respects her and values her
But who wants a gurl with scars?

The girl is too tied and mad
Mad to the world that is so unfair to her
But what else could she do besides building up fortress and masks
Fortress and mask that she makes, resulted in showing like she is the happiest girl in the entire world

Yes
The only thing that she could do is smile and pretend to be happy

- Nadine (08/07/2014)

Definitely, Maybe

From the day you came along

I feel that we both belong

You said it was forever and always

But why did it only last for days?

Few months later, you found a new one

If I taught that I was the only one,

You broke my heart and shattered it to pieces,

You left me alone without goodbye or any kisses

Going back to the time when you were so sweet,

Yo make my heart skip a beat

When you are around I can’t think straight

I feel you are my destiny and my fate

Most of the night you end up in my dream,

A dream as sweet as honey dew

Your love was as warm as the mid-day sun

Now it was as cold as an ice children play for fun

- Nadine (07/07/2014)

Falling (in) Love

I hope you fall in love with someone who always texts back and never lets you fall asleep thinking that you're unwanted and unloved

I hope you fall in love with someone who holds you during the scary parts of horror movies and burns out cookies with you when you're busy goofing around the kitchen

I hope you fall in love with someone who sees not just stars in your eyes but galaxies and hears music in your peaceful sound of a heartbeat

I hope you fall in love with someone who makes you smile and laugh on the hard days and so does on the easy ones

I hope you fall in love with someone who takes photographs of you on random moments and whispers silently '-beautiful' 

I hope you fall in love with someone that gives you comfort and joy but not only that

I hope you fall in love with someone who will understand you, who knows about your dark past and find beauty in it to make them love you more

I hope you fall in love with someone who will go to the groceries and buys you ice cream and rent movies on your worst period days

But beyond all of that things I hope you fall in love with someone who will never leave you behind and who will never take you for granted, ever

Someone who will stick by your side when you're right and also when you're wrong

Someone who has seen you at your very worst but has loved you still

I hope you fall in love with someone who kisses you in the rain and snuggles with you when you're cold and wouldn't have you any other way

- Nadine (06/07/2014)

Alone Here Waiting

I was once sad and lonely

Having nobody to comfort me

So I wore a mask that always smiled;

To hide my feelings behind a lie

Before long, I had many friends

With my mask, I was one of them

But deep inside, I still felt empty

Like i was missing a part of me

Nobody could hear my cries at night

For I designed my mask to hide this

Nobody could see the pain I was feeling

For I designed my mask to be laughing

Behind all the smiles were all the tears

And behind all the comfort were the fears

Everything you think you see

Wasn’t everything there was for me

Day by day, I was slowly dying

I Could’t go on

There was something missing

Until now I’m still searching

For the thing that will stop my crying

For someone who will erase my fears

For the person who will wipe my tears

But until then I’ll keep on smiling

Hiding behind this mask I am wearing

Hoping that one day I can smile

Till then, I will be here

Waiting

- Nadine (06/07/2014)

Difference

In the middle of the night, the girl and the shark get up to fight

They are so different yet so much alike

He is hopelessly doomed, whilst she glows and shines

She walks gracefully in the dark, ignoring the constant danger, oblivious to the watching shark

She dances around bringing joy and smiles to those pained hearts

She believes in soulmates

She believes in love, but the cruel truth is she doesn’t have any of those

The awaiting shark has lost his soul, he stupidly thinks she can fill the hole

That empty hole in his chest, it shallows everything

Even his own blood and chest

The pain that made him numb, turning into a cold monster

One that doesn’t deserve love

Scars have marked his body, salvation is inaccessible to him

He is just a nobody

The girl and the shark must stay apart

For what he will break her

He will just wound her precious kind of heart, possibly

The girl and the shark have to stay apart

- Nadine (06/07/2014)

Stone Of Me

Seeing the world through these cold eyes,

Every word I speak, made of ice

Motionless, expressionless, stares so dull

The wind blows gently yet searing into my skull

Other things just seem like a blur;

I stare at my old self, so sweet, so delicate

How could it be, I wondered, like this right now;

My then smiling face permanently etched in a frown

I looked at the window, past the pouring rain,

Unconciously I called out your name

Flashbacks came quickly, so vivid and clear;

You were still with me, back then I have no fears

Your smiling face was almost true

Your eyes are shining, a deep deep brown

Then I saw you with her, happily walking

While I’m left at the sidewalk, broken and crying

I stopped the replay as it cames to that part

Took a deep breath and felt my heart

Right now I’m here, all alone;

Because of you, I am now made out of stone

- Nadine (06/07/2014)