Emptiness

When will they finally realize?
That she has never been actually happy
The walls that she built around her, notice that?
She built it so no one could come in
Nor break her already broken heart
Nobody really understand what she felt
They said they do, but it is just because they are done listening to her

When will they stop and observe?
About the sadness she felt 24/7
About all the tiredness of having to go through this on her own
About the depression that she drag every step of her way
And about all the stuffs she kept deep deep inside her

Little did they know
She cried herself to sleep every night
She got lost in music because she believes that only music that could cure her
She harmed herself because it makes her calm
She shut the world out because she is too tired of all these
She tried to end her life because she feels rejected by the ones closest to her

For her the world is such a cruel place

If only someone could be her pick-me-up
Be there for her any time at any cost
The one that respects her and values her
But who wants a gurl with scars?

The girl is too tied and mad
Mad to the world that is so unfair to her
But what else could she do besides building up fortress and masks
Fortress and mask that she makes, resulted in showing like she is the happiest girl in the entire world

Yes
The only thing that she could do is smile and pretend to be happy

- Nadine (08/07/2014)